todae i so sad....dunnie whie lei maybe onli justin n dillon understand mie....and todae i burst into tears in maths class there is somtihng tat came inot my mind tat i was toking to justin for the pevious nite...is like i felt like dieing since yesterday cause i m tired of living i m tired of thinking and being sad...there something tat happening between us i felt someting veri strong towards me...i aLso dunooe how to sa la...i juz felt like crying whenever i crying and todae i already had try to not cry not i realli could not control my feeling out of sudden...also dunnoe how to say la..i hope tat justin or dillon can save me out of tis situation...its veri pain and veri tired i juz felt like dieing whenver u thought of tat...is juz like being betray by sometone who is the one i trust the most in the whole wide world he realli dissapoint me tat why i felt like crying...he not the one who use to care and share the thougt wif mi3..tat whie i felt so sad...although i tok to the cousller but is like now i caming back into my mind again....also dunnoe how to say feel like haf a shoulder for mi3 to cry...juz like the cousller said tat i felt tis because is like my veri friend and the one trust the most leave me and betray me..tat wadthe counsler said...also dunooe how to solve tis problem..help me arrrrrrrr...i m going around the bushhhh....and someting came into my mind she ask me who is the personi most trust actually is .... but dunnoe why he treating me like tat ow i tink tat dillon is the one who realli care for me..help arrrrr...i m dieing arrrrrrrrr.....i m veri tried liao i dunoe wana tink animore or cry over it animore....luckily there is stll justin N dillon to care altough somebody .... who use to be the one i trust the most my whole life he leave me and betray me...dillon n justin ty for caring for me...i tink my life still haf to go on...i muz be strong although i m sad....i muz brace up and work hard to pass my math not let jusitn downnnn.....gary do u noe tat u r the wan 1 i trust the most my whole entrie life....do u noe how much it hurts when u did all those tings to me u noe ma i felt like dieing because of tat i m veri tried liao...how i hope tat some1 would understand...haf u ever experince ur friends doing all kinds of tings behind ur back u noe ma how much i hurts me is like i fell from 100 storey building and u noe ma u r my best frenz form sec1 and darren i haf explain to him but why muz u do all those to me...u noe i cry because of tis tings actually i can chose not to cried but i cant because u r the one i trust the most and u r my best frenz...can u tink ma wad haf u ever done anithing for me...i dun wana to quarrel wif u is like it has being i my heart for veri long...i always tell myself to be open and not to cry but iccant realli....sry to said tat i haf lost all my hopes and after tis incident i noe who realli care for me....i m veri tried liao...and i haf nver change is onli i haf realli to work hard and maybe i haf found some1 more trustworthy...and u still my best friend...

the last few days i haf been busy preparing my exams n up coming test...on sat and sun i spend day playing study awhile and play dota wif my "kor" actually is ask him play de..i veri bad horrr....todae i so happi because gary dillon and mine kor gave us a BRANDED although i might not be veri veri exp but nvm all is heart countssssss.....thank kor...:)i tink wif tis pen i would beeee able to passs al my test n exam...muhahahaha...gary and dilon also got but differnet form mine my ballpoint and they had ink i wonder how he noe i like to use ballpoint pen..kinda of funny...aniway i veri happi liao....tinking of buying a gift for him too....n he said it is the first gift for his god bro and we also thought of gifing him tooooo...hahaha....n he is hafing a party wifthe other mentors and ktv and haf dindin a old markettt....hope he would not do wrong tinng...but vm he onli drink fruit punch not fruit beer or fruit wine....enjoy ba...nitenitesssss

last few got nothing to write...yesterday i went to study wif justin and dillon at queensways shopping centre i was quite fun la..from dunnoe we also become noe liao he is a super teacher..haha..n i dunoe i went to study and actually hurt someone feeling i m veri srri to u munyee...and todae after bp dillon,me,justin and xiaoli we went to orchard road for their bp mentoring meeting so we tag along xiao was so happi she keep taking pic wif us...lol...like she nver been there be4 but while they r hafing meeting dillon and me we went to walkwalk and eat at mos bugar i drank milk tea tat jusitn said it was veri nice but actually it suxxxxx.....tat now toking to someone about secertssss......bb

todae nothing happen much....is like we haf a change in home econ teacher..she slow us the mould chocolate cake and bread its soooooo smeely lor..but jojo and elvin wemt to open and smell it..OMGOMGOMG..i m kinda of tried to dae i slept i science class todae and todae i fought wif the fucking kok kiang in science class cause he drip me pen into the water and the ink wet my uniform and i went over and gave him a punch on his damn face and use ankle to whack his face...lol..i was so angry...but nvm later we went for history i was so scare i might failed the test gary jojo and dillon also thought so man...i dun wanna fail...i got to buck up liao...later when i reached home as usual i played one dota match and onli one gary can be my witness then i started to prepare for my lit test but dun noe why i dun feel like preparing for my math one de...dillon also haf the same thought me..haha...then juz not long ago i juz help dillon and also help me to understand better in the chapter we are tested on and end u we both understand quite well i tink it is good to study wif him because our standard almost the same la...ok la muz go liao..nitenite...

i juz read dillon blog i felt so sad when tat day he felt like dieing i fell crying i dunnoe wad had happen to him i tink i should gif him more care and concern...TO DILLON: u muz remeber no matter wad happen dun die i dun wan to lose a friend like u i m srry tat maybe todae i neglect u Dillon I M SRRY plz be srry strong and exam i m also equally scare like u but if we prepare i tink we would be able to make it justin and i would be there to support and when u are unhappy or something is bothering u plz tok to me or some1 dun keep it in ur heart even a balloon would burst if u pumped in too air so find some1 to share ur burden and i can be tat person if u willing plz i beg nver tink of dieing it realli make me feel like crying:(...and todae lehhh...me gary and dillon wanted justin to be our god-bro dun noe whie leh cause maybe because everytime we got xin shi we can share wif him and he is one guy we can trust man...i hope he would our be god-bro.....and todae chinese test i forgot to study lei but somehow i got tat confidence in myself tat i woul do well de..haha...hope i passsssssss ba.....N DILLON I M SRRY I HAF NEGLECT U...SRRY

todae i spend my day playing dota wif justin and studying for half an hour lor....then todae i also haf discovered tat really there is someone in the world who is so similar to mi3...and when i tok to him a my xin shi and he totally knew how i felt and the most funny ting is that tis tings had also happen in his life be4 and i now turely tink tat it is the process of growing up lor..hehe..and i also found a person tat i really trust and can open my heart and tok him about how i feel and my sad tings n he also willing to listen to me not like some of my friends and he also noes how to comfort me and realli after wad he told mi3 i realli feel tat it is the process of life or growing up how i wish i knew him earlier and toking to him is like toking to my veri veri best friend (THERE IS 1 among the 6 of us de discovered urself baand he is better then the 6 of us)ya he is older then he 8years but he claim tat i m older than him but ya la he is still kind of young....n i got to thank him for all his time and he had help me twice in tis kind of problem i dun noe whether he mind ma...but i m veri thankful i knew him cause when there is no wan to tok to he is the one lor....and i learn alot of ting for him like in life and also in my life and he said tat he also learn alot of ting from me dunnoe true alot cause i onli got bad point n dun haf good to learn deee...how i wish he is my bro...hao le la my stomach still hurts gotto go liao...motto of the day=NO MATTER WAD HAPPEN NVER TINK OF DIEING CAUSE LIVING IN TIS WORLD U R NOT LIVING FOR URSELF ONLI IS ALSO U R LIVING BECAUSE OF SOME1 GO AND FIND IT BA...MUHAHHA

todae i spend my day playing dota wif justin and studying for half an hour lor....then todae i also haf discovered tat really there is someone in the world who is so similar to mi3...and when i tok to him a my xin shi and he totally knew how i felt and the most funny ting is that tis tings had also happen in his life be4 and i now turely tink tat it is the process of growing up lor..hehe..and i also found a person tat i really trust and can open my heart and tok him about hpw i feel and my sad tings n he also willing to listen to me not like some of my friends and he also noes how to comfort me and realli after wad he told mi3 i realli feel tat it is the process of life or growing up how i wish i knew him earlier and toking to him is like toking to my veri veri best friend (THERE IS 1 among the 6 of us de discovered urself ba)ya he is older then he 8years but he claim tat i m older than him but ya la he is still kind of young....n i got to thank him for all his time and he had help me twice in tis kind of problem i dun noe whether he mind ma...but i m veri thankful i knew him cause when there is no wan to tok to he is the one lor....and i learn alot of ting for him like in life and also in my life and he said tat he asl olearn alot of ting from me dunnoe true alot cause i onli got bad point n oahf good to learn deee...how i wish he is my bro...hao le la my stomach still hurts gotto go liao...motto of the day=NO MATTER WAD HAPPEN NVER TINK OF DIEING CAUSE LIVING IN TIS WORLD U R NOT LIVING FOR URSELF ONLI IS ALSO U R LIVING BECAUSE OF SOME1 GO AND FIND IT BA...MUHAHHA

todae arrr..so tried slept at 11pm and woke up at 7.45pm..sobsob..todae as usual in morning i meet at interchange at 8am and wait for darren and haf breakfast and go n find munyee...justin u better see tis post I WANNA COMPLAIN THE MENTOR I HAD TODAE WAS #@#@ HIS ENG WAS SO TAMIL AND IS CANNOT UNDERSTAMD WTF HE TOKING AND HE TEACHING SO DIFFCULT TO UNDERSTAND I WAN U TO TEACH MIEE..HEAR TAT....kidding la aniway still got to thank u todae for lending mie and jojo to watch movie..is like todae we had lunch at redhill market and saw stephen there mi3 and justin had kway chay and jojo and munyee haf fish slice bee hoon...then we plan to watch movie while walking to the redhill mrt to go i then relize i left my atm card at home...lol..then we said dun wan to go lor cause jojo also forgot to bring $$ then justin said he actually wanted to treat us to the movie but we was too pai sei for him to treat us then he said treat it like it was a loan lorrr..and also said we planned liao so he dun wan us to like planned to go and because of some reason and cannot go so he lend us $$..THANK JUSTIN....i haf nver seeee a friend of mine like tat said be4 lehh...althought we knew each other not long ago but we haf meeet veri long ago...hope to see one in our starz BOYZ...n later we went to plaza sing lorrr...and while we r lineing up to purchase our ticket he told me tat he dun haf enough money to but hte tickets and got to go down and withdraw $$...luckily when we r lineing the ticket did not stop selling and manage to watch....the movie was quite scary laa.. ionli scare at the first part cause tis guy when to the library and nobody was there and light went out and 2books droped down and he went to see and out ofthe sudden tis "GHOSTS" pop ot and roar ohh my fucking god it was so sudden i also threw away my bag and justin was s called screaming and jojo was shouting and mi3 my heart fell out and the guy is like micheal jackson leh..lol..haha..and through out the whole movie i was about the ghost came in by frecenzy n they would appear and eat ur will of living and u would die...and jusitn was kinda scare and jojo was veri scared but i hardly see an adult like justin so scare in watching GHOST MOIVE..haha.i so bad..and the movie was great if u wanna call me and ask la i dun wanna type out so long lehh..yaaa be4 i forgot when we are at the lift jusitn said wo yao unrie(in chinese)i was so funny and after we bought our tickets we rush to the toliet and relieved oursleves...omg so heaveanly....and then after the movie we went home...todae was so funny lehh..thanks justin for ur lending mi3 of money and not want to dissapoint us..thankthankthankthankthankthankthankthankthankthankthankthankjustin....there is still another ghost movie to watch arr dun miss arrr......

hihi..let tok about today...today was our school party called "biohomie"so be ba me gary darren jojo dillon and elvin we all attend the party all of us was veri excited about tis party like me i spend $80 for the party and gary bought a new shirt which cost about$60 and elvin spend bout $90 lehhh but darren and dillon they did not buy any shirt but they look juz as COOL..at bout 5pm we went to dillon house to so called style his hair.....then at 6pm we went off to the party when i reached there i saw dickson who have the same blazer as MEEE i suddenly thought that the world is really smallll:0...at 6.30pm the party started and it started wif dindin n then dance.....the dindin was so good tat dillon ate 3plate of it....an the dance arrr we did not realli dance but me elvin and jojo we put our hands on the one anther and like tototo train run around the hall and later we had a game i was so nice..is like 2 multi-layer present ws pass around the hall and they playedthe music when the music stopped and open the box n see wad u get a forfeit or gift...they was a time where the present was pass o mie and i knew the music was about to stop and i threw the whole ting at dillon and he pass to gary and gary was bout to throw the music stop and lukcy gary got the present i thought i was a froferit but lucky is a gift and got himself a pack of MONSTER SWEET..disgustingdisgusting....at bout the end of the party we STARZ boy took a group photo...after tat the party ended and we went to ABC market n haf supper unfortunely gary did not follo us..haiz..i had pig organ soup and they haf kway chay n ice kacang..it was like omg lor at aobut 10pm++ u haf ice kacang and a full meal..lol how to sleep!!then i reached at about 10.45pm and slept at 11pm cause i was soo WORE OUT....

todae happen alot of tings la...like i kinda dun like a person tat person is so dunnow how to say la and also dun wan to say!!i also quite haf keep it in my heart for a veri long time la luckily i got tis veri good frend whom i tok to him for 1.5hrs for the first time i was a wonderful chat he taught mee alot of tings like how to solve problem and he say tat we muz learn how to accpet ppl's kind of life n muz also learn to how to say it out when u r unhappy and todae i haf learn alot from him like he has told meeee that he was a so called "tao kay godson"he used to stay in a area where i called double fish and there is shopping centre and he play around the shopping centre and NO one DARE TO SCOLD HIM LEHHHHH!!!and i m veri thankful i got tis friends who is veri helpful and who is willing to help mie in my work and he had i should work hard on my math no matter wad...thnak you for your counseling session..haha....lol...or to speak ur time chatting wif meeee....:)

todae munyee and wahidah quarrle dunnoe about wad ting la...and todae go volley so FUN cause dillon skill is improving n i got a good partner now to play wif..aiyo my body aching liao..bb.so long hope for a better tomrrow

haiz..todae some many tings happen first in the morning as usual i would go to darren house then we go together but todae HE WOKE UP LATE but nvm it has has happen 3time tis month i wonder wad he do in the nite!!then after we went to haf breakfast as usual we have wonton mee but todae we ate pork rib noodle sooooo NICE...then later we met jojo at the bus stop then i make a face tat he got scare by mi3 it was so funny..haha..then *********** quarrel wif his/her sis because her sis dun like her use the com and she also promise somebody to do somthing for his frenz then i went to comfort tat person and the ting that shock me was tat person was so angry tat she kept scolding but after awhile so was alrite liao...then few minutes also tat person was scolded by tat person mum beacuse of wad ting la..then now she say why her life so bad so xin guo(bad life) n aslo said wanted to end his/her life i was so sad i hope she can ka de ca(open-mined abit)...i m still worried tat he/she would do smthing stuip then i sure would veri sad de...and i wan to tell her in lif there alot of ups and downs and i wan tat person to be more open-mined to tings like tat and never i repeat never tink of ending no matter wad happen there is always someone around who nids u even if u die u can't solve the problem de...to be frank wif u i aslo ever tink of dieing because of small tings but at last i tink if i die i got no gain and also veri not worthy and later i thought there is nothing to be angry about de acually juz learn to be more open-mined can le and the act is veri childish...so brace up and hope for a better tomorerow...MUHAHAHAHA...JUZ BE HAPPY.....=)

Haiz...our former engilsh would not be teaching us animore and turn out to be tat black skin woman sobsob.....todae i finally can sit down n study for exam and i studied for 1hour(u may tink is not enough)but is veri good for mie liao hor...so to speak i was motivated be tis mentor call JUSTIN he has put in hardwork in my maths so for tis time i would try very hard to pass my maths so i would not let his hard work go down the drain de...I MUZ WORK HARD FOR MY MATH!!!!lets say if i fail i also cannot fail like last time which i onli got 18% for my dear maths....n i dunnoe why i got so motivated by tis guy to study hard...aniway thks justin for his hardwork...lol...haha...maybe also i wanna be like him study in a university and stay in a hostel and no nid to listen to my parents nag and nag..haha then i haf lots of freedom...MUAHAHA...but i dunnoe whether i can do it cause u see all my subjects marks haf being dropping...i also dunooe how i really hope some1 can help mie...haiz if i ask gary he so impatient and hot-tempered i dare ot ask him..darrren leh some of the subjects he also struggling liao and munyee dare ask cos if we study together ppl so gossip one ma as u noe.....(there is some texts missing!wanna noe guess ba)..aniway i hope there would be some1 can help mie i would be veri grateful to tat person if i passs well...:)let hope for a better tomrrow:)

today is such a DRAG...juz lvl up maple and got no mood to play liao and waste my 2x exp card sobsobssss......todae me,dillon and darren went to pc bunk cause darren asiasoft passport got suspend!!!!but when we reach there and ask tat guy in-charge he say tat username of the asiasoft he got it wrong..WA i got so pai sai lorrrrr is like is ur acc n u dunnoe OMGOMG!!:)then we also got play there 1hrs but i also no mood to play lor n wads more i waste 4dollar for 1hour then later my stomach GROAN GROAN so we ran to eat fried bee hoon and plaza sibg sooo EXP...aiya nvm la and i remeber at NUS while waiting for tat JUSTIN to open the door downstair i farted so loud so pai sei when gary say....aiyo who farted then he say my name and said 'aaron u farted arrrrr then ymy look at mie and laugh i was so pai sai lor....aniway i gotto go lia......nitenite